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“I know this will end, and I pray I can start over.”

Despite overwhelming loss, a Gazan entrepreneur looks to the future.

Rafah City is sheltering the majority of the 1.9 million Palestinians who have been forced from their homes during the war, now in its fourth month. They have lost family members, homes, properties, and vital sources of income. Among those deeply affected is Alaa Abu Mudallah, the owner of the "Khotwa" training centre, an initiative she started to address one of the most pressing sources of hardship for Gaza residents—pervasive unemployment.

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A recent World Bank report has found that 45 percent of residential buildings in Gaza have been ruined beyond repair following months of bombardment and war. Photos: UNDP PAPP/Abed Zagout
"I graduated in 2012 with a major in medical analysis and excelled during my studies. However, upon graduation, the harsh reality of unemployment hit me, and I found myself among the countless youth waiting in lines for temporary opportunities at the labour office," she says.
Photo: UNDP PAPP/Abed Zagout

Photo: UNDP PAPP/Abed Zagout

Tired of waiting about, she decided to do something, establishing a training centre to address the lack of practical and technical support for students in her field.

Khotwa, which means ‘step’, opened in 2012, starting slowly, with only a few students. But Alaa persisted, marketing her business and networking with universities. In 2020 she had 400-500 students every month.

That same year UNDP’s Programme of Assistance to the Palestinian People, with funds from Japan, launched a programme to support women-led businesses affected by COVID-19. Khotwa received US$9,000. Alaa used it to expand into IT and programming, attracting more young people. Unfortunately, during the Gaza May 2021 Escalation, Khotwa was hit and demolished, forcing Alaa to start over.

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In May of 2021, 11 days of fighting resulted in the death of at least 250 people in Gaza and 13 in Israel. Photos: Shutterstock

“When I lost the centre in May 2021, I felt very disappointed, but I insisted on rebuilding. In June 2021, my team and I celebrated the opening of the new centre, supported again by UNDP with equipment, laptops, chairs, projectors, and necessary materials,” she says. The new location near Shifa hospital seemed promising, and Khotwa flourished until the 2023 war.

Forced to evacuate her home, Alaa was at first unaware of the centre’s fate. And then she heard the worst. “I lost the centre again. I lost everything again, and I am not sure how many times I shall start over. I feel very helpless.”

Now Alaa does not even have a permanent roof over her own head. “We are homeless, with no income and no prospects," she says. "I love my business, and I miss it. The loss is huge for me."

In addition to once again losing the center that she poured her her heart and soul into rebuilding following its destruction in 2021, she also lost her home. Photo: UNDP PAPP/Abed Zagout

In addition to once again losing the center that she poured her her heart and soul into rebuilding following its destruction in 2021, she also lost her home. Photo: UNDP PAPP/Abed Zagout

As the economic situation worsens in the fourth month of the war, Alaa, a confident and successful businesswoman, has been forced to rely on her savings to survive. Far more used to supporting others, she must now accept help herself. "It is humiliating for me that I was someone who helps others financially, and now I ask for food parcels and assistance," she says.

Gazans are not just paying the price of war with their lives and health; the conflict is also stealing their future.

An early UNDP/ESCWA report had estimated that if the war was to continue for over three months, there will be an increase of between 20 to 45 percent in poverty, and a sharp decline in the Human Development Index, which will set back progress by between 11 and 16 years.

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UNDP also anticipates a significant rise in unemployment coupled with a sharp decline in GDP. Photos: UNDP PAPP/Abed Zagout

UNDP support for the people of Gaza remains unwavering, and Alaa's story reflects on the inclusive interventions and the determined resilience in the face of adversity.

Because despite everything, Alaa remains hopeful.


“The loss is huge, but the first thing I think about is to reconstruct my home and business. I know this will end, and I pray I can start over in 2024."

Photo: UNDP PAPP/Abed Zagout

Photo: UNDP PAPP/Abed Zagout


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